Finding My Way

How to start this? I've sat down so many times and tried to put my thoughts together, but I think that the best way to do this is to just share and move forward. It's been a really long time since I've posted anything. I'm sure that hasn't been very noticeable, because it's not as if there are tons of people reading this little blog. Still, I feel like it's time to get back in this chair and begin to write again and that starts with sharing what's happened.

I've had a good reason for being away. My husband of nearly 37 years lost a long battle with the big "C"  this past April. From the moment we found out he was sick, I focused all of my energy on caring for him, and that didn't leave any room for writing (or much else).  It was a long and valiant fight, and if anyone could have beat it...it would have been him. I always believed he would. It still seems like a mistake that he didn't. Like a glitch in the matrix or something. How could he be gone when he's my whole world? I know I'm not the only one whose been through this, but I'm not ashamed to admit it nearly broke me. 

Now, I'm doing my best to figure out how to live in this world without him, and finding my way hasn't been easy. Most days I grit my teeth and put on my best brave face, because that's what he would expect of me. He'd also expect that I get back to writing, and I'm going to do my best to honor that expectation. 

If you're still here, thank you for your patience and understanding while I work to find my way.

Much love,

Dena